I can't even remember when it started, but I think it will last until the end. I hardly feel anything... I got a new computer but didn't feel happy at all event though I was working to get it for about 2 years during holiday. When my dog died (which I had for almost 10 years) I wasn't sad, I wasn't crying, I just somehow accepted it... That's what I am doing everyday, just existing and having no interest in anything. I question myself; what's the point? What am I supposed to do? When I meet someone I imagine what will happen when they die, which is the only thing I really think about. Its like having a body that wants to live but a mind that doesn't. I also listen to a lot of black metal music, which helps to fill the emptiness. Maybe these are my last words but anyway thanks for spending your time writing this pointless text...